Why Do You Abandon Me ?
To you ; Why did you have to go ?making me relentless ; i dont know whats happening .
I aint sure that im certain with the ephemeral memories that ive gone through .
I recknoned and spluttered when people said it was a stupid crush .
I knew it wasnt just a bad dream , its either tangible .
A perchant , a pivotal person , perhaps had me surrounded by embraces .
Maybe , he's nonchalant of everything that ive tried and trying till now ..
"Go get a life , soleha .."
Or it was just a serendipitous thing that i got to see and vanished after awhile?
I kept wandering , perhaps , something that isnt worth time or a cruel infatuations..
agonizing; and i abhor it this way ...
No matter how many bachelors on my phone , it couldnt make a change ..
making me move on , percieving it had already left footprints ...
i dreaded everyday thinking , where were you ? how you're doing ? And have you been missing me?
Sometimes , it makes me wanna cry ..
Sometimes , it makes me smile through the history that had past ..
im fatous but im more lethargic to go through more ..
It isnt apt what ive been wanting it to be ..
And , God , it really made an impact to me ..
Im staggered by what ive saw ...
You're happy now ..
And im grateful for that ...
We have been segregated and being strangers are the state we're in ..
You know i dont want things to go this way ..
I miss someone who could replenish me with happiness and joy everyday ..
With a sheer , you made me realised that im in a wrong ..
And im sorry for what past mistakes ive done ..
A sudden hush , and ive been trying to assimilate ..
Thank you for showing that you ever care of me ..
You know what?
I misss you sooo much ..
More than i ever miss you ..
You know what?
I misss you sooo much ..
More than i ever miss you ..
I even miss asking you "so , whats the highlight of today ?"
I wouldnt even expect you to come over , but if you did , thank god ..
If you're reading this , I just wanna say ...
I know you wouldnt care about this anymore ..
But , ive always been waiting for every 22nd's ..
Where i got to know someone that vault in , and ..
Thenn , realizing ..
Eventually it had just left footprints for me to trace and just think about ...
Happy supossed 4th monthsary of knowing you ..
As a friend , a buddy , a boyfriend ..
And now , somehow , a stranger ..........
I wouldnt even expect you to come over , but if you did , thank god ..
If you're reading this , I just wanna say ...
I know you wouldnt care about this anymore ..
But , ive always been waiting for every 22nd's ..
Where i got to know someone that vault in , and ..
Thenn , realizing ..
Eventually it had just left footprints for me to trace and just think about ...
Happy supossed 4th monthsary of knowing you ..
As a friend , a buddy , a boyfriend ..
And now , somehow , a stranger ..........
" I do still hope that a miracle might happen"
saya sedih banget :'(
Cheer me up , someone?
With Love ,
Shasha D ;
♥ Missin YOU @ 1:56 AM
