Why Do You Abandon Me ?
Went bedok to lepak with yuyu and her friends.
she was rather the fun type.
not as how i expected her to be.
hahaha!
then, around 5.30 headed home.
well, curfew mahh.
like ccb!
i dont know why.
eversince yesterday.
i find myself different from others.
i feel like a little girl.
i feel like im only 10.
when im turning 16 in 2 weeks time.
Others are like free birdys.
i wished to have life like them.
freedom.
that all i wish.
i see myself different from yuyu.
i dont know why im saying all this.
but,
to me,
yuyu meant more for aza.
they're together everywhere.
they're more close to each other.
they had their late night meet ups.
as for me,
i got this stupid curfew thing that brought myself away.
sometimes,
i find that there's no need for me to have a guy.
its just gonna be a boring and foolish relationship.
i guess so.
urrrghh,
when will i have the freedom that i wished for?
maybe sooner,or maybe later?
last night,
i just felt like pouring all out.
i just wanna lose out everything.
everything's thats on my mind.
part of me just want this to go.
or should i say let him go.
coz' i know that he'll get a girl waaayyy better than me.
however,
part of me is afraid.
afraid of losing someone i really love.
i dont want history to repeat itself.
coz i hate looking at history.
it hurts and kills me.
i just hope all this while,
is worth waiting.
♥ Missin YOU @ 4:39 PM
