Why Do You Abandon Me ?
i hold back my tears after the call i received at the bustop after school today.
i dont know why i felt the grieveness after those words.
favouritism?
that describe best.
Ive never yearn for something impossible for me to get.
Ive never thought of getting love or show up all those talents and achievements i got.
Coz after all,
im aware that im just a normal soul.
not like my siblings.
or not like my friends out there.
people look at mistakes.
they dont even bother to look at the positive side of someone.
coz all they knew was,
ive ever been a bad girl in their eyes.
ive never complained or share my thoughts with my loved ones.
all i have now,
is Anne and Aza.
Coz ive got nobody.
im standing by myself even if someone were to say there were behind me,
they were'nt.
they're just there for a listening ear.
watching my tears roll down my cheeks.
i felt empty.
ive got lotsa things to share and show.
But thats inside of me.
that NOBODY ever want to discover.
im just a puppet living in someone's hand.
like a puppet, and a controller.
tell me,
if you were in my shoes,
will you ever stand that?
people complained about things they abhor or dissatisfied,
but do they ever bother to ask me whether im ever satisfied?
No,
coz all they knew was im okay.
imma happy go lucky person.
but they're wrong.
i have to bury this feelings all byself.
faced all those shits, by myself.
for a 16 year old teenager,
Ive learnt pretty much independence.
but somehow,
people just dont see how much im being like one.
all they know was,
im just a burden.
oh ya,
im a burden.
coz ive failed to even have the trust of my parents and yeeah,
my studies.
ive failed.
or perhaps,
im just a failure.
yeaah,
maybe im just a FAILURE.
='(
♥ Missin YOU @ 12:02 AM
