Why Do You Abandon Me ?
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wtf , i just felt guilty and ashamed with her .
But , its not me whom needed the money ..
i was just helping ..
and became the middle person!
fuck.
i dint wanna scream to you intentionally ,
but you know babe , ive pastered you lotsa times .
And , sometimes , people got mad easily when
you kept on moving the topic over .
Kay , im sorry if this was a force for you .
what im doing was for my brother .
on the 12 , it'll be settle .
i know , my brother is the man of his words ..
dont worry .
i was fuckin' pissed off when you talked about that bella thingy siaa .
like why must bring up about her and my brother??
haiyo,
whatever lah .
after this , i know when situation is fuckin' terrible ,
you're not the one for me to ask for .
as i dont wanna trouble you and your money anymore .
thought we're sisterz....
hmm , about today , i slept at 11 plus and woke up at 4.30am .
i was bored and cant sleep at that point of time ..
i realised that i laughed while sleeping .
hahahhah!
as in , terbahak -bahak .
giler siol .
then , decided to take a jog .
as i wanted to jog at 5am from last thursday .
hahaha ,
i jogged 1 round around east spring primary .
thenn off to north park and further .
stooped at tampines cc gym as i was feeling dizzy .
worked out at the fitness corner and off ,jogged home .
dint sleep after that , washed up , then accompanied bibik to supermarket .
thenn , that fuckin' afternoon stuff .
i walked home from POSB nearest to Tamnpines Polyclinic .
noone was at kerusi belajar as i was expecting to see them , lepak .
hmm , miss them alott :(
though i knew them for just awhile ..
however , they're great friends to me .
i walked through blocks , and my heart beats fast .
i thought i saw someone familiar .
i turned blank , and i felt like turning my way when i saw , khairi and eddy .
goooddddd!
i dint expect to see them , especially khairi .
idk why .
ive tried as hard as i could to resist him form my mind .
and after trying for months , it worked out somehow .
just 50% of him gone , out of my life .
but the 50% just seems to stay .
hmm , idk why .
he really made an impact to me ; my life .
he's just a nice and sweet guy for me .
and i asked my maid this ,
"when our heart beat went on fast and we gotta know that
someone we knew , was there , what does it mean ?
and she simply said ,
"you still love him , shasha ."
no, please dont say that coz' ive tried .
i dont wanna say that i even love him anymore when he dint even show
that he at least care of me .
argh , i feel like starving and get myself overdoze,
i felt miserable .
can i just sit at the hospital?
maybe its better there.
:(
♥ Missin YOU @ 2:14 AM
